Just a Brief Note

I have not felt healthy since Trump took office in 2016. Yup, I’m blaming him, but ultimately responsibility for my health falls on my shoulders.

I followed politicans, I subscribed to various political newsletters, and I read the horrifying headlines every single day–more than once. I pretty much wallowed in my hatred of Trump and what he was doing to this country. There were times when I woke in the middle of the night and went online to read the news. Stupid! Sometimes that made me so angry, I couldn’t get back to sleep.

My blood pressure is up, various parts of my body are bitching at me with aches and pains, and I’m just not as happy as I should be.

A change has to be made.

The first thing I’m doing is unfollowing all my news sources. Inevitably, I will see or hear what’s going on politically, but the bottom line is I can’t do a damn thing about that shit, so I refuse to seek it out. I’m handing the reins over to Biden and Harris and the other Dems and hope they can fix all the stuff Trump trashed or broke.

Following Trump’s antics became addictive. This won’t be easy, but I have to step away. I’m going to pay more attention to my physical and mental health. I have to get the BP down, exercise more, eat better, and get more sleep! All the attention and energy I gave the Republicans will now be directed at making myself feel better.

Photography will be important to improving my general state of mind; I’m never more happy or calm than when I’m in nature. I may take up writing again. I’ll certainly read a lot more.

Salem’s going to help me with this; petting an animal is soothing and lowers blood pressure, but only if you’re “present” when you do it.

I have to learn how to be present again. How to enjoy this moment and not always be looking ahead or worrying about things I can’t change.

I’ll still post pics here and write flash fics, but my time off continues when I finish writing this. I just wanted to let you know where my head was right now.

I’m turning 69 in February. Gawd, what an age, and if I want to enjoy it more fully, I must make some changes. It’s going to be hard, but I’m determined to improve my life.

About Fenraven

Fenraven lives in central Florida, which reminds him of Wisconsin and Minnesota. Find him on Twitter and Facebook by searching on 'fenraven'.
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2 Responses to Just a Brief Note

  1. bryandspellman says:

    Theo, I want you to know how much you mean to me–and I say that having never actually met you. Your writing first grabbed my attention, then your photography. I rarely comment on your blog posts, but I read every one that comes into my inbox. For almost a year after the 2016 election, I found myself on the verge of suicidal depression. The only thing that kept me sane was reading light fiction and working on my photography. I leaned that there was nothing I could do about Washington’s mess, so I turned my attention elsewhere. Now, with the 2020 election all but behind us (please God, let it be behind us), I find myself no longer depressed, but deeply angry that almost half the country believes the man’s lies. Yesterday, my partner and I drove to a resort area in northern Idaho. I dare say that 1/4 the homes we saw had TRUMP 2020 banners flying and even worse, many businesses did as well. I know where I won’t be spending my money. Hang in there my friend, if I dare call you that. You are important to many of us. Do what you need to take care of yourself. And do keep writing and taking (and sharing) photographs.


    • Fenraven says:

      Thanks for the encouraging words. I’m going through a tough time, but I’ve always managed to survive, and this should be no different. When life changes, I need to bravely embrace it instead of being afraid. It ain’t over till it’s over.

      A lot of us are holding our breath, waiting for the monster in the WH to get the fuck out of there. He will go, or we’ll drag him out of there. It would delight me to no end to see him wearing cuffs and leg chains while attired an orange jumpsuit. He and his whole grifter family can rot in prison for all I care. I never want to hear from any of them again.

      I still see Trump/Pence signs here, too, but there are fewer. Many realize that yes, their orange god did lose, and it’s time to move on.

      I consider you a friend, Bryan. We don’t talk much, but the connection is real. Thanks again.

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