Fatigue… and Ants

Last night I dreamed I was at the store, and I’d forgotten my mask. I was terrified I’d catch the virus, because someone, also not wearing a mask, was talking in my face only two feet away.

I’m not afraid when awake, so I’m surprised I’d have a nightmare about masks and the lack of them. Maybe reading about the recent surge in reported cases has stirred up my subconscious. Florida is one of the states that has shown a massive increase in cases (no surprise there, given the bootlicking Republican governor).

The last four months have been long. Really long. I lost Suki, my faithful companion of nearly sixteen years, and except for quick trips to the grocery store every two weeks, and a handful of visits to local parks (with no one around), I’ve been alone at home. Even work has not distracted me from my isolation, as there hasn’t been much, and I’m becoming concerned about money. 

Yesterday they resurfaced the roads in the park, and we were forbidden to drive on them for 24 hours, which actually stretched to three days. (Of course several residents ignored the request and drove down the street, one of them doing it only six hours later.) It was like another nail in the coffin. I was so frustrated and twitchy yesterday, I was ready to rip someone’s head off.

This year, 2020, was supposed to be an improvement over 2019, and 2018, 2017, and 2016 before that. It didn’t happen. So far 2020 is the worst year in recent memory, and hurricane season is around the corner. One wonders how much worse things can get.

Something has to change–nationally, globally, and personally–but I’m not sure what.

I’ve picked up the macro lens again. Ants are a challenge, as they are usually always moving. Take a good pic of an ant, and you are well on your way to mastering macro photography. 😉

This last one shows the ant protecting its source of sweet syrup. I was considered a predator and threat.

See you next time.

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Fenraven happily lives in south Florida, where it is really hot most of the year. Find him on Twitter and Facebook by searching on 'fenraven'.
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2 Responses to Fatigue… and Ants

  1. A.M.B. says:

    I have some catching up to do on your blog! I haven’t been on social media much lately. I am so sorry to hear about Suki. I can only imagine how hard it must be to lose such a good friend, especially right now. These are very challenging times. There is no doubt that 2020 is the worst year in recent memory, and honestly, 2016-2019 were terrible too. Each year of Trump’s presidency has been worse than the previous one, and it makes me sick that there’s even a chance we could have four more years like this.

    • Fenraven says:

      It’s been difficult without Suki, especially now, because of the forced isolation from the virus. I haven’t seen my human friends in months either, which doesn’t help. I keep wanting to do things and go places, then remember I can’t anymore… not until a vaccine is created. I’m pretty self-sufficient; this must be horrible for people without much in the way of inner resources.

      Good to see you again! Glad you stopped by. Let’s hope November brings about the change this country needs.

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