There are Lots of Ways to Waste/Fill Time

Since I purposefully stopped writing, I’ve been casting around for other things to do. Surprisingly, I was at loose ends for a while. I didn’t know what to do with myself if I wasn’t hunched over the laptop. The days stretched ahead of me with nothing to fill them. It was weird.

Who was I if I wasn’t writing?

Then I got editing jobs. Problem solved. I spent a lot of hours each day working. But when my brain had had enough, I needed other distractions.

Wednesday, I watched the first thirteen episodes of Big Bang Theory, S8; Sunday, I watched the remaining twelve episodes. Thursday, I went over to R’s to catch the Heroes Reborn premiere. It did not impress, and I doubt I’ll watch it again (boo-hiss to Tim Kring, who was in charge once again and somehow blew it).

I’ve been reading more than usual. I’ve taken naps. I’ve tried installing old computer games and tossed the ones that didn’t work–don’t you hate when that happens?

Today I discovered I could play an old favorite online: Mah Jong Quest. I bought and paid for it fifteen years ago, but it won’t play on Windows these days, even though Microsoft invented the damn game. I have to put up with ads every six or seven minutes, but I deal with that by killing the sound. I’m embarrassed to tell you how many hours I played that sucker yesterday. I only quit when I hit a layout that stopped me cold. This freaked me out a little; I’ve previously played through the game at least twice, start to finish, only had problems with one screen, and this wasn’t it. I wonder what’s happened to my brain in the intervening years.

And I’ve ignored story ideas. Lots of them. My brain insists I want to write, but a part of me is resisting. I’m not sure which side I’m rooting for at the moment, and until I know, I’m refusing to open the word processor.

Are you still a writer even if you’re not writing?


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15 Responses to There are Lots of Ways to Waste/Fill Time

  1. Helena Stone says:

    LOL, I think it’s a bit late in the day to decide you’re not a writer; look at all those books in the sidebar on the right 🙂 I don’t think there is a rule when it comes to writing, is there? I mean we all think of Harper Lee as a writer even though, until recently, she ‘only’ had one book to her name. So I’d just stop worrying about it if I were you. If the ideas are still accumulating in your head I wouldn’t be surprised if you’re back behind that word processor in the near future, but even if you aren’t, does it matter? You need to do what feels best for you at this moment in your life. That may not be the same thing as what was best a few years ago and it may be something different from what you’ll need to do in a few weeks/months/years. And it’s all good. It’s all about living your best life. Only you can decide what that is.

  2. Jaycee Edward says:

    Helena and I are definitely of one mind. I was going to point to your sidebar as well, although I can relate to what you’re saying. I feel even less of a writer because I have nowhere near the output that you do but for a multitude of reasons, writing is at the very bottom of my list right now. I drove by the coolest inflatable dragon the other night and had to stop to check it out. I decided I had to find out where they got it because I *need* one for my yard – then it hit me how perfect it would be since I actually wrote a book titled “Dragons” – and then a second thought hit me as to how surreal that seems to me at the moment. *shrugs* It is what it is. I’m not going to stress over it. I might write again. I might never put out another word. That’s not what defines me. You may feel differently though. I think you need to grab Suki and your camera and go exploring for a day or two. Find a place that allows dogs and have an adventure. If I was there, I’d love to go with you. 😀

    • I’ve been thinking about a little jaunt somewhere with Suki, but I’m short on cash at the moment. Perhaps in mid-October. That would be a good time to do it, too; every day, our temps are becoming better for outdoor fun.

      Today, it is gray and rainy. Apparently, several systems are moving over Florida from the gulf. While I don’t mind the change from hot and sunny, it doesn’t prompt me to go for drives, either.

      What I’d really like to do is visit the mountains in North Carolina. Politically, the state is a train wreck, but the landscape is gorgeous. And it’s been too long since I’ve been there. Asheville is a wonderful town!

      • Jaycee Edward says:

        Drove part of the scenic byway in NC when I went to visit my brother years ago. We had to stop at every little pull-off because every one was a gorgeous photo-op vista.

        • Last time I was there, I had a crappy digital camera; the industry was still new then. I have three or four photos from that trip–not nearly enough. So that’s another reason I have to return: new photos!

  3. As long as you encourage other writers with your help and works, you’ll continue to be a writer.

  4. Allison says:

    You will always be a writer whether you choose to keep writing or stop for a while nothing will change that. Maybe this break will lead you to write something else entirely or maybe you’ll simply find new stories that excite you about writing again.

    Enjoy this break, delve into things you’ve put off because of your writing, give yourself the opportunity to just relax and see what happens. I know we all hope you don’t stop writing, but I also know your happiness is more important to all of us. ❤

  5. A.M.B. says:

    Yes, there are definitely lots of way to fill/waste time! It’s not really a “waste,” though. It’s important to take breaks.

    • It’s interesting how we’ve been taught, if we’re not doing something productive in some way, we’re wasting time. Thanks for reminding me everything we do is worthwhile and pays off in one way or another.

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