AJ Works While I Play

He started his new job last night. I dropped by to show my support and maybe eye-fuck a few guys. There were a lot of good-looking men around.

This place is huge. I started in the front bar, where AJ was stationed, and wandered through the lounge and into the back bar. The place was packed, but not uncomfortably so. I wandered, smiled a lot, said hi when spoken to, but didn’t settle anywhere. I didn’t feel like engaging. 

I limited myself to three drinks, spread out; I was driving home and didn’t want to chance getting drunk. It’s been too long since I’ve been clubbing and the noise level gave me a headache. JJ and I frequented the smaller, neighborhood places, where we could relax and talk at a reasonable volume, maybe play a game of pool. I guess this is a sign I’m getting older, huh? When I prefer low to medium volume instead of raucous ear-splitting merriment. Get a lot of people together and it’s loud.

Or maybe it was me. I was over-sensitive to everything; music was too loud, laughter was too loud, even the occasional burst of light hurt my eyes.

It’s been so long since I was single. I felt like someone had removed my skin and I was exposed to everything.

Before leaving, I said goodbye to AJ, who was high as hell on the excitement of it all. He grinned and nodded and as I walked away, someone grabbed my arm and said, “You know him?”

“Yeah.” The man had great eyes but looked a little wild, as if he was wired.

“Is he available?”

I looked back over my shoulder at AJ. He was smiling and talking to a couple of guys, one of whom was stuffing money in a tip jar.

“Guess you’ll have to ask him that.”

I walked out into a really nice night, with just the slightest bite to the air, found my car, got in and drove home. Suki was waiting for me.


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One Response to AJ Works While I Play

  1. You were tired and lonely. Wish I could have been there to hold you. Would that be too bad? To have a girl holding you? *sigh* It’s heartbreaking when you care so much for someone but your hands are tied and you can’t do anything to help. 😦 *hugs*

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